Why am I feeling this way??

Every time, I look forward to a special occasion,
And as the day approaches, in one/two days time,
I always got this feeling of backing out in the end...
Somehow, I know things are not going as smoothly as they are.
Is it so difficult to get some simple things done?

Don't ask me if i'm feeling okie...
Cos I'm definitely not okie...
Perhaps..I guess there's no need to make a big fuss over it..
It's just another day in my life, or your life...
24 hours, 1440 minutes, 86400 seconds...it will be over.

Should I drink some liquor before I sleep?
It's been a long time since I touched them..
Good night..Everyone.