e One hates Wednesday

it's wednesday tomorrow..

had 2 seizures on the past two wednesdays..2 weeks apart..

31st Jan..2 weeks after my 2nd seizure (17th Jan)..

so will it be a coincidence? will it happen? hope not...

if you have read this blog..and tmr surprisingly...you receive a sms from me..

well, you should know something has happened..

take care~

e One with PSS2 tickets

is my luck turning good after the illness? or perhaps it just that not many people participate the lucky draw at mymall.com.sg for the free 100 tickets to the PSS2 Grand Final..

Received an email from MediaCorp..I was one of the lucky winner to get a pair of the tickets..

Now I wondering if I shall sell it at forums...or give up to friends who want to go..

Feb 4..I got a wedding dinner to attend...that's why I can't go..Otherwise, I will have invited someone to accompany me..

though it just only 3 mths and a few more days of knowing each other..but it seems that you have become an important person in my life...you have been the closest friend that i can open my heart to..

thanks for lightening up my life.

well, i don't know if i'm an important person in your life yet..hopefully it will. one day.

e One not 'sick'

Sorry guys! Please don't treat me like a sick patient..

SIAN!
parents are restricting my movements...can't do sports, no liquor, stay away from computer, want me to have more rest..AND have to be home early..

i'm losing my freedom..

e One with personality test 1

http://www.paulgoldin.com/colorgenics.htm

You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.

Enough is enough. Nothing seems to be working out as you would like it to and it has got to the stage where you feel as if you can't be bothered anymore. The way you feel is that it would be great if you could be cut off from everything and take it easy - be it only for a short time.

The present situation, not of your making, is forcing you to compromise. You will have to hold back and forgo some of your hopes, dreams and aspirations.

You are frustrated and stressed. You appreciate the finer things in life but at all times you appear to stay aloof, critical of everything and everyone about you. You will not be carried away by your emotions and you refuse to trust anyone or any situation unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore, you keep a strict and watchful control on your feelings as you must know exactly where you stand at all times. You demand complete sincerity as a protection against your own tendency to be too trusting.

Matters are not all that they would appear to be and you are critical of the existing conditions which you feel are confused and disorganised. You are therefore looking for a modus operendi which will simplify the situation so that you will be able to see the 'trees in the woods'.

e One..PSS2

last year...we had two K's - Kelvin and Kelly emerging winners for the PSS1..

this year...we have two D's - Daren and Diya emerging winners for PSS2..

But definately..this year's top 4 can't be compared to last year's top 4 in terms of singing..

e One seeking medium help

Hahaha, the medium from temples..

my neighbour had actually seek help from some medium in some temple, to get some tailsman..according to her, she said that the medium told her that i had not offeneded any 'spiritual beings'.

this morning. dad made me drink a glass of water with burned ashes..and bathed with flowers/ashes...

just hope better lucks will come my way after this...

e One seeing Chinese Sinseh

Morning, went to see a chinese sinseh (recommended by my brother) near east coast road..the sinseh is a young chinese fellow...he diagnosed by taking my pulse..told him abt the 'ringing' sound in my ear...he said that there may be problems with my kidneys (OH GOSH!) Anyway back to the consultation, he said there are no known causes for seizures...but can take some medications to prevent it from happening..and meanwhile, i will need to watch my diet..avoid cold drinks, fried foods, more vegetables and fruits..i mean it sounds logical point of views from every doctor who will their patients..to eat healthily...

"Diet is the roots to all health problems"

e One with 2nd seizure attack!!

yesh if u are reading my blog..

i had the 2nd seizure attack (today, 17th) after exactly two weeks!!

yesterdae, i slept early at 9pm..and wake up at 9am..watched the "Good Morning, Singapore" till 10am. felt abit boring cos my brother was using the computer..so i went to sleep for a while..

half way..i woke up, and hear a 'ringing' sound in my left ear, and abit shivering. within a few seconds, i blackout. but i still remember i was salivating before my blackout. and i cant remember anything else..

when i woke up, i was in the living room. my dad, brother, mum, a few neighbours and 2 paramedics were around! deep in my heart, i knew it, i had seizure again! my dad keeps asking me to sit down..relax..rubbing my hands and legs..

after that, was sent to TTSH (because my parents thought it will be better to sought consulation for doctors in TTSH instead of CGH). hours of waiting!! damn them. had a blood test, and show normal result. throughout on the bed, i couldnt rest well, due to muscle aches..the whole body!

i was in the hospital from 11+am till 5pm..before they concluded that i can be discharged. gave me panadol for my headaches..initally the doctor asked if i wanted to be transferred back to CGH for consulation, and i said okie. they contacted my doctor in CGH, and she said it was not necessary..and pushed me back to TTSH..sighz.

and i'll need to go for medication if my results show positively on 9th feb..

according to my brother's story:

he was playing computer in the living room, when he heard some noise coming from my bedroom..so out of curiousity, he went in and checked to find out that i was having seizure again. my hands and legs were stiff, eyes roll backwards..teeth clenching..and bloods from my mouth..apparaently, i had bit my lips, and quite an amount of blood was lost. the whole thing lasted about 10mins..

after that, my eyes opened..he thought i was okie already. but then my eyes closed and went back unconscious..this repeated twice within another 10mins...

luckily this time round, they got the knowledge that i provided for them. they put me slept at side way...and avoided putting METAL SPOON in my mouth..

it wouldnt have been worse...if my brother is not at home and only my mum at home, for she is in the kitchen when things happened..how disasterous can that be, without her knowing..i might be in some deep shit then..

till then, i will take care of myself...
friends, thanks for well wishes again...
and shall inform you about my results...

e One at the EEG test

yesterday..went for EEG test..

so here's what happened at the test:

the doctor needed to attach 25 points on my head to monitor my brain waves..so she marked the head with chalk. after that, i lie on the bed..and she started placing those points on my head. for the first 3 minutes..i was asked to do deep breathings..and subsequently, i was asked to close my eyes and rest. in between, eyes were opened as requested to a lighting test where the light flicked with patterns..and i need to stare at it..

the whole EEG test took an hour..and the result will be only available on 9th feb for my 2nd appointment.

e One going for medical appt

didn't really sleep much yesterday night..
maybe i was worried about what the results are going to show at today's examination..

well, those reading my blog..
will keep you updated about myself..

till then..
it's time for me to go..

e One feeling sorry

alot of times...i told myself to control my tempers..

i flare my flames again..to some people..

i didn't mean it.

seriously.."i'm sorry."

e One not fit to take care of anyone..

just some thoughts:

Why did the illness strike me?? Of all people..it had chosen me. Fate? Or blame myself?
Okie..70% of all the cases...there are no known causes..but medical reports know what can triggered such an attack.

If seizures are triggered by: due to lack of rest/sleep..then why those people who worked 16+ hours a day..never kena?! I merely tired myself because of festive seasons..(i guess so?)

Irony..I still wanted to take good care of myself first, stay healthy..so that I can take care of others..I doubt that will be possible. I shall count myself lucky if I didn't become a burden to others..

So well..let's just stay tuned for my follow-up (EEG Examination) on 16th Jan. Bless me.

e One requires First Aid from you (friends)!!

After such an incident in early 2007...
Decided to surf web for more information on seizure..This is what I got..
http://www.epilepsy.com.sg/epilepsy.html
http://www.med.nus.edu.sg/paed/academic/NEU_seizure.htm
http://www.nni.com.sg/ForPatientsandVisitors/PatientEducationPamphlets/Epilepsy.htm

Those who are reading my blog..please do take note of the followings..I don't know when or where I will have another seizure..Thanks.

First Aid for Epilepsy
If you happen to witness a seizure, the most important thing is to make sure the person does not harm him/herself during or after the seizure. You could help by:
Do not insert anything into the mouth
Loosen clothing around the person's neck
Remove sharp objects
Only move the person if they are in a dangerous place
Protect the head from injury
Reassure and stay until he/she has regained consciousness
Turn the person on one side so saliva can flow out of the mouth
Roll the person on their side after the seizure subsides.
Do not restrain the person
Place a cushion such as a folded coat under the head
After the seizure, allow the person to rest or sleep if necessary
Do not give anything to drink until consciousness is fully regained
Contact the parent or guardian if a child had the seizure
When the seizure is over, watch the person for signs of confusion

After all types of seizures:
Talk gently to the person, be comforting and reassuring as it may take some time for the person to become re-oriented.

Important:
If a seizure lasts longer than 5 minutes, or repeats without full recovery seek medical assistance immediately. Although this rarely occurs, it is a serious medical emergency.

You can still reduce seizures:
Even though you may not be able to prevent seizures completely, but you can reduce the frequency of their occurrence by:
Don't forget to take all the medication
Get enough rest and sleep
Don't stress yourself
Take nutritious foods
Avoid smoking and alcohol
Avoid taking stimulants and sleeping pills

e One's mouth full of sores..

The result of my illness...

my tongue and lip is full of wounds..wonder if it is because i bite myself during that 15 mins..or the use of the metal spoon by my dad..not to mention..a shaky tooth..

now..i have this involuntarily control of drooling saliva..

looks like some retard..haha

e One in hospital..

Everyone has his/her first time stay in hospital..
I had my first time stay at Changi Hospital because of FITS..

It begins when I was watching the TV shows ard 9+pm on Wednesday and surfing net at the same time in the living room..Then, I hear the same 'ringing sound' on my left ear and the feel of electric waves across my brain..I started shivering (refer to entry dated 19 Aug) and before I knew it..I had collapsed.

When I woke up, I found myself in my bedroom, with quite a number of people surrounding me. I wanted to get up from the chair, but these people just forcefully hold on to me, preventing me from moving around..I was struggling like a mad man. My vision began to glue to 2 guys in blue uniforms - they were the paramedics. The next thing I knew, I rushed to the toilet to vomit out all my dinner..And was later, escorted downstairs...where I saw more neighbours and people looking at my direction. It was scary...

At the hospital, the doctors asked numerous questions, poking needles and drawing bloods from me..It was only till 1am that i was sent to my ward 44 bed 2..

Mum renacted the story of what actually happened when i lost conscious:
When I was about to collapse..I had accidentally kicked the laptop table, which alerted my father to rush over to see what happened. In nick of time, he did managed to prevent my head from the floor. My limbs were stiff. My eyes had rolled backward. I was trying to bite. My dad placed his thumb to prevent my biting, while mum went to kitchen to get a metal spoon to place in my mouth..All this lasted for about 15 mins. Not to mentioned, my dad had actually poured soya sauce into my mouth...

Did i sound like i could be possessed? i don't know. Because of the metal spoon, I chipped my tooth, and seems like 2 teeths are loose. What could be worse, if I had reached home, and slept when the incident happened. Nobody will have discovered it then. I will be dead..

Last..I'd like to thank those (C.K., Lavin, JianBin, Geryl, Pearlyn, Johnny, Lijun, Christopher, Lingjia, Corrine) who had taken the time to visit me. Thanks, your companionship had made me less lonely in the hospital..

I also like to thank those (Andrew, Samuel, Vincent, Alvin, Noinoi, Guanjie, Marilyn, Alex, Felicia, Junyan, Benny, Alison, Charmaine, Yvonne, Joey, Johnson, Junhao, Kelvin, Heokhee, Zhenhui, Russell, Benjamin, Taishun, Terence, Singkwang, Lawrence, Weiliang, Eddy, Hongjun, Shaowei, Jeslyn)..for the smses/calls to wish me speedy recovery..

Perhaps it's a blessing in disguise..the secondary school friends that I had lost contact for 2 years..came to know of my illness because of this incident.